Maybe it's because when we met it seemed like we were each other's only friends and protectors, and it stayed that way for awhile, but in the past few weeks in the whirl of bridal showers, bachelorette parties, and weddings, I've felt like a little girl who doesn't want to share her best friend with anyone else. I am so happy for Meg, and even had to keep from sobbing loudly during the wedding ceremony (embarrassing), but for some reason I was so sad when I came home from Austin. I keep thinking of her standing on her front porch with Will, crying and waving to me and her family as we drive away, and feeling the way I did when I left Baltimore - like I'd abandoned her. I did abandon our plan to move to Austin last year, for a good reason, but then mostly out of fear. I wish I could be more brave, like Meagan.
Now this song will always remind me of the two of us dancing at her wedding.
